So my next relationship was very heated in a good way. I used to have these small parties every saturday night me and a handful of people would have a huge bonfire in my field and just hangout and bullshit and just have a good time. One night we were all out there and a strange car pulled up and it was a car full of girls and no one at my house knew who any of them were it was strange because that stuff doesnt typically happen at small unadvertised parties. Turned out to be a handful of girls from the next town over who just happened to be driving by and thought it looked like a good time and they wanted to join (still odd because we were in the middle of no where) but anyway it was a blast i ended up foolin around with one of the girls but neither of us were interested in anything more than just that which was also great! So another week has come and gone and ive collected more scrap wood to burn from local businesses and saturday night rolls around and the girls bring more girls and this is where i meet Rachel. There was fire in our eyes from the moment we met and she was a fine little thing i couldnt even believe she had an interest in me! she was like a solid 10 and im like mayyyybe a 6 or 7.
Rachel was something else though she was very outgoing and everything she said or talked about she had such excitement in her voice and was just always excited about everything! time goes on and we start dating and my best friend Ryan (remember him?) starts dating Rachels best friend Carissa. One night during one of my fires me and Ryan bring the girls up to the barn and my barn was exactly your average barn half of it was also like a little house we had a living room and kitchen and bathroom in there so needless to say it was pretty awesome but anyway we bring them into the living room and we all get in the hot tub and just hangout and relax and joke around and i give Ryan this look and he catches on so him and Carissa get out and move to the couch and next thing you know it turns into a makeout party. Things start to warm up and get a little physical and me and rachel both end up naked in the hot tub we didnt have sex but there was definitely some foreplay going on but she was still a virgin and didnt want to yet which was fine because i wasnt about to force her to do anything you know? but once things cool of and come to an end we dry off and get dressed and go back down to the fire with everyone else and the night comes to an end. The four of us hungout all the time Ryan and i would even bring the girls hunting with us and we would go out on double dates and what not and just always had fun together. One night i sneak out to go see Rachel and i pick her up and we just drive around but eventually we end up parking and this is where we had sex for the first time in the back seat of a 2003 ford f150. This was her first time ever and i still feel bad that it couldnt have been in a more romatic and comfortable setting but thats just how it worked out i guess. when we finished she made a joke saying it was the best sex she ever had, well of course it was she was a virgin till then haha. That night is when things really started to heat up and from that point forward we humped like wild rabbits needless to say i was in great physical shape during that relationship. Things were always great for us, dare i say eveything was always perfect. however, i was not perfect. I started having an affair with Ryans girlfriend because i was still salty about him stealing my girlfriend in the past even thought i was happiky in a new relationship. Carissa and i end up doing this for about 3 months it was supposed to only be a one time thing but it was just so exciting because we knew it was a huge risk especially since we were best friends dating best friends. i had no emotional attatchment to her other than just friends but she didnt feel the same way like she was telling me and i was starting to feel really bad i mean i felt bad the entire time because i knew what i was doing was wrong but i became addicted so i had to tell Rachel and i had to end things because i knew i wasnt good enough for her. So i picked her up one day and we sat in my truck and i told her everything and she was heartbroken and so was i but i just felt like such filth and i couldnt even look at myself or look her in the eyes because i knew i had become a monster and thats not who i was. She begged me to stay and said we could work through it but i knew even if we stayed together things would never be right between us and she’d never trust me again. we both sat there bawling our eyes out trying to speak but couldnt because we were hyperventilating because we were crying so hard. we shared one last hug and one last kiss before we went our separate ways. Me and Ryan remained friends even though i was the reason we were both single but i knew he was lowkey PISSED at me haha but as im sure you can tell THAT DIDNT GO AS PLANNED!! 😉